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Personal: Casting off the Cement
Sun, 03 Dec 2006

Its come up in passing a couple times of late, so I thought - why not? - mention it here. Now, I've always been energetic and motivated, forever plowing ahead on whatever I wish or need to do. Its one of my super powers - everyone has some - that lets me get through the denouement part of a project and actually produce something. Right now, I'm full of energy and plugging away like mad. It feels good. Like past years good, when I knocked out a half dozen freeware apps on the side, just in my spare time, for something to do. Like when you were 10, and got a new pair of shoes, and just ran around the block to feel the wind in your hair. That good.

But looking back, I think there was a year or so where I wasn't so.. rejuvenated. The other day it was cold and raining hard and nasty, and Mother Nature was showing who was boss, and I smiled. Bring it, baby.

I didn't notice at the time, but by comparison and hindsight I'd have to say last year I spent walking uphill both ways through a snow-storm with cement boots. Now, I'm cool with that and slog ahead with the same old energy, but I think the whole delay in getting our lives moving on was a yoke of sorts. I didn't produce as much (and sad as I am, I measure myself in some part by how much 'stuff' I produce) and just wasn't as happy I think, though life was pretty good and I caught a bunch of BSG and Firefly. I guess I'm not suited to recognizing that sort of thing, but I know it was really effecting my wife. Anyway, so something was there and in the way, like friction.

This year isn't about that. I wrote in her Christmas card last year - "This is our year" among other things. I was, luckily, correct. While the days fly by, every one is full of exciting things, and each night I head to sleep looking forward to the next morning. With the baby coming (less than three months to go), life has reason, focus.. momentum. Carpe Diem indeed!

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